July 15th…

Who knew?  I could actually like girly things!  I’ve decided that I’ll have more flowers and soft stuff in my new hideaway.  And I guess my dorm room too.

My family can’t understand why I work so hard during summer vacation.  They don’t get the type of bills what I’m doing wracks up.  But, shouldn’t they understand?  They have a mortgage and all that other grown-people type stuff…

Anyway, Elian was back to his goofy self, thank goodness.  The last week or two he was so cranky from baby sitting his brothers.  We finally got a chance to hang out for real with the other guys, and we had a blast.

But there’s still part of me that hates that I have so many secrets from him right now.  Best friends aren’t supposed to hide anything.

And there’s another part of me that feels like he already knows my secrets…  I wrote this for him, but I think he’d just tease me if I gave it to him.  Well, if he ever decides to check out my little blog here, he’ll see… He’ll finally see me…

hidden in the cold

is a daring secret

hidden in the heat

is a scary thought

before the wind blows me away

i ground myself in the comfort of control

and then the earth falls away from my feet

and I am free

~Anaïs Faythor