June 10th…

Just two weeks, and I can go home for summer break… just two weeks… I’m embarrassed to say, that makes me nervous.  Why would going home, FINALLY, make me nervous?  I have been pining for this day since I left… this campus is still grating on me, causing friction in my very skin and nerve cells.  I wish I could reminisce about how quickly this first year has gone.  I would be lying if I did.  It was excruciating, at times, being here.  But, for some reason, I don’t know that I’m ready to detach just yet…

Perhaps its because I’m finally emerging… I have a job lined up for when I get home too.  Add to my savings to make things push forward.  I am determined not to fade away…

Home will re-energize me, not consume me.  I can not be consumed, not now.  I can not fade…

~Anaïs Faythor