April 15…

I’ve begun working… literally and emotionally.  I have a goal.  I’m saving for it.  All of my money will go to making it real.  I’ve discovered something about myself… I’m not sure I understand it just yet… But it’s something dreams are made of.  No, that’s not right.  It’s what people wish for in their dreams.  It feels like a dream.

But I need the space to explore it.  To explore myself.  What’s hidden inside?  Beside my depression, beside the yearning for people who aren’t near me?  Beside the desire for places I can’t be?  I’ve seen a glimpse of what’s inside… and it makes my dreams sparkle with a luster I want in my life.  My goal… I must achieve it.   Or I may fade away.

~Anaïs